2007/06/19
【不吐不快】
快受不了我自己了…>O<
為什麼眼前面臨著一脫拉庫的作業(哈哈哈!終於消滅掉字學作業)
還可以這樣好整以暇的坐在電腦前面抒發情感
放這四天假我覺得我最大的收穫就是看了一部好電影和共補了12小時的眠
可是還是很疲勞啊…
感覺比較像身心俱疲…
覺得整個人好像分成了好幾等分
明明這個時間不應該想這件事的
卻偏偏沒辦法專心
這是怎麼一回事@@
已經夠容易睡著了還一直狂分心
而且盡想一些現在也沒辦法解決的問題
我知道這又是我腦袋的逃避心態作祟
想快樂的事當然可以暫時的忘卻眼前的煩惱
問題是…我想的根本就更複雜的事哪來的快樂啊…= =
快點!!懶惰退去~我要我積極的鶴亭回來!!
積極正面有自信的鶴亭你在哪裡?
快來一起終結九樣Crazy作業吧!!
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【快聽 慢說 慢慢動怒】
上禮拜一直講到破碎
我想這禮拜就是實習周吧
要不然為甚麼改變這麼痛啊!
我的脾氣真的很不好
動不動就想發脾氣 易怒
只有真正貼近我的家人才會招受到魚池之殃
有時候我很痛恨我自己這樣的行為
但這卻又是我很軟弱的地方
通常認識我的朋友都很了解我的性情
超級情緒化(拜託又不是在唸戲劇 不需要三秒掉淚好嗎= =)
我的情緒表現很誇張
喜怒哀樂完全看的出來並不需要我多說一個字
有時候也令我蠻苦惱的
就是想裝做無所謂也沒辦法
一定原汁原味的嶄露無遺
所以我才覺得我像個透明人
絕無保留(是優點也是缺點)
只要一有想改變的念頭
這個”我”基本上是絕對不喜歡我有這樣的念頭
"我"一定會用無所不計其極的藉口來說服我不要改
但是我知道我必須改變
難道就這樣隨便讓自己陷入這種的惡性循環中嗎？
Never!!
在我裡面的比世界更大!
靠祂我一定能撐過去且得勝有餘! Let’s overcome it!
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【Oops…Crash…】
The things I’m thinking right now it is really bother me, so I think this is better to tell my Lord that how I feel about that.
I know him for a while and lots of my friends from church also know him, but they didn’t know I think I crash on him.
I can’t deny how my heart was up and down very fast when I saw him.
But he just got out from a relationship, has break up with someone.
I don’t know for sure if he is ready to love another person or not,
And I don’t think I’m ready for the life full of complicated yet.
So, I’ll wait and see and find out what is going next.
Also I’ll keep pray until the Mr. Right is come to my life at right time.
So…God please help me to became a better woman that you love,
Teach me how to live, and trust in you that you know what is good to me and what am I really needed.
I put my life in front of you, to guide me, to help me, to make me whole.
Also teach me how to love another, renew me, and put your mercy in my heart, let me cry for my school and pray for them to know who is the never changes love and use us to win the campus for you Lord.
“But rather seek ye the kingdom of God; and all these things shall be added unto you. Fear not, little flock; for it is your Father's good pleasure to give you the kingdom.” (Luck 12:31-32)
“Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.”(1 Corinthians 2:9)
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